Friday, January 12, 2007
12.36 am and it's still raining. Somehow, i'm finding it diffcult to summon the discipline and motivation to indulge in school work. Yes, "indulge" is the correct term because i like to believe that i'm morally obliged to do well in my studies. Nevertheless, it's human nature to become complacent and every semester i have to devote some time and effort to remind myself that i own it to my family (my parents, future wife and kids) and those who pay for my education (seriously, i don't have the money for university education if i hadn't got the TA) to put in my most sincere efforts in my work.
Feeling a little troubled, lost lately, all culminating in an overwhelming sense of defeat and lack of urgency. Music and milk provide some form solace for the troubled me but still i cannot afford to indulge in such escapism for long.
Talking about milk, just bought a can of Anlene from the super market the day before. Apparently while it is fortified with a number of vitamins, its nutritional value doesn't matches that of pasteurised milk, maybe because it's skimmed milk thats why. Nevertheless the crux here being that, drinking a cup of Anlene after doing my weights seems to make me feel more relaxed, not just physically but more at ease with myself as well. I don't get this effect with the usual HL milk, you know, the pasteurized kind. Wonder if its has anything to do with endorphins and all that feel good hormones you get from chocalate etc etc. Maybe its a good idea to do some exercise before i study. Yes, i must prove physical and intellectual progress can be made in tandem in fact it has already been proven possible by our own dustbin hehe.
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