I hate to admit it but it seems that Kr's right to say that there ain't anyone visiting my blog and i guess if i were to say i'm feeling really upset, consolations will probably start to pour in after the exams er maybe "trickle in" would be more apt a term haha so i guess i have to spend a little bit more effort on writing quality posts to upp my readership. Well seems like there are a lot of tormented souls out there and what can i say but misery likes company. I was thinking is life really that complicated and examining my life in retrospect, it seems life isn't really that complicated. I know it sounds cliche, but it seems that most of the time, its just us complicating matters especially where certain issues are concerned, issues pertaining to the heart.

I don't want to ramble too much because we all have our unique ways of managing the pain but just want to say that there's actually a lot of things worth living for and i feel kind of stupid how i could get so upset in the past.

Anyway i was contemplating how i could leave s'pore for good haha now thinking of it, i think i was just being a little impulsive. What i mean is that, i guess everyone has this "place/idyllic paradise i really want to be" a place where one could seek solace, respite from the bittereness of everyday life/work place politics/unreciprocated love/betrayed trust/whatever but the point is, it just a fantasy, it cannot be real because we have to work haha maybe we can go some place and indulge in ourselves for a while but we can't be doing that forever, we'll be too lazy, so...i guess when i said i wanted to leave here for gd, i was letting my emotions cloud my rationality.

Thinking of it, i don't really have much to look back at, hated my JC life, army was ...army lor so seems like only time when life was much simpler it was prob my sec sch days which is like eons ago haha tink i sld juz conc on running.

Still remeber the days when i was in thailand though, life was simple and the people were simple and i got to run every night whenever i was free haha pretty hard to describe the feeling but the air was cool coupled with this tinge of "carefreeness" also the route was kinda exciting in the sense that part of it extended into some ulu ulu area where there were no lights haha but nice to see thai soldiers saying hi along the way, kao singaporeans aren't even that friendly.

See i so lonely even my "memrories" dun even include friends haha

GG to sleep, tmr i will run, along baaungkok and the lonely path along the big drain at punggol park, so what if its lonely, so what if this world sucks, so what...i don't care, kill me if you dare, timmy wun cry bcos uncle dun let him board the bus.

haha i muz be crazy, writing incoherently