I'm back. Haven't blogged for quite some time, technically, since january. Been busy practicising my piano hehe. I'm sure some of you guys will find my preceding statement questionable and probably my intent for learning piano as well hehe. It's not my fault that my piano teacher is attractive right but seriously, we probbaly belong to two different and parallel planes (mathematically, i don't mean aeroplane). Anyway this blog will probably undergo a paradigm shift. No more lamenting and discussion of my innermost feelings, i'm a MAN for goodness sake not some sensitive new age pussy (to borrow the words of tw hehe), this blog will probably serve as a chronicle or more accurately a diary of my piano journeys. Anyway, embedded below is a recent song which i have just learned: A Time For Us. It's a simpler arrangment than the actual song. can't help it right, i have only learned for 5 months lehz. Well yup, decided to record my attempts on the piano. This way i can see and hear how i play from a 3rd person perspective and probbaly see how i have progressed 5 years down the road and maybe even show my kids and grandkids about it. Oh i think too far liao haha. Maybe should think about getting a real piano first hahaha.
11:05 PM
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Friday, April 10, 2009
8:32 PM
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Saturday, January 03, 2009
School's reopening. Decided to spend some time and money to do something which i have always wanted to. I finally experienced the feeling of not being able to fulfill some of my dreams. I am not exactly referring to failing to accomplish the goals we set for ourselves but rather not being able to act on our dreams because the opportunity is no longer there. Take for instance, holding xihui's hand is no longer possible becuase xihui now has zhao ying. Ok, this is just a ficticious example but you probably get what i mean. And yeah, i'm not gay. It's funny that i have never felt this way before. Accordingly, i want to start to act on my dreams and not wait till its too late. I probably need to start living in a more organized way as well since i need the time for pursuing my dreams and now, there's no one to motivate me to finish those assignments asap. Work, is after all, only one aspect of life.
3:50 PM
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Thursday, January 01, 2009
Went out to meet the guys today. Left my home as an agitated man but now i have found my peace. I realised that the fundamental differences between us cannot be reconciles. Beliefs and perceptions can be influenced, habits can be conditioned and corrected but values, i believe, cannot be compromised. Take for instance the concept of fillial piety. No matter how westernized we are, we still feel morally obliged to care for our parents in old age. To quote from gw, there is no right or wrong in a relationship, some things are just different. And as NIE has always advocated, we should not only tolerate or accomodate difference but accept it as well. In the case of our relationship, respecting and accepting differnce translates into parting. Parting is invariably sad but it is also inevitable. To better convey this concept, we see that when we go to a shop and look at an article and find that the price is too steep, we walk away, we don't argue with the shopkeeper because from his perspective, the price quoted is justifiable or 'correct' although from the perspective of a consumer, we tend to think otherwise. I thank you for everything and i must apologise for the hurt i have caused. Given that the new year has arrived, there are a few resolutions which i shall list here to remind myself.
I should be more aware of my temper. In particular, i am quick to anger. I accept that this is a natural response and precisely because it is a natural reflex, it will blind my judgement. I should allow my anger to subside before evaluating the issue. I should always try to comprehend the situation from the perspective of my opposite be it my parent, my sister, my friend, my gf, my colleague or even my student.
I should be cautious in the use of words and their underly connotations. I should be cautious of my actions so as to be sensitive to the feelings of the opposite. I should never use the phrase: "I told you so". I should not raise my voice.
Lastly, i should alway let my anger subside, reflect, offer advice and most imporatntly demonstrate concern. Concern is not merely offering good advice but encompasses empathy and good advice is not to dictate but merely to inform.
Its high time i corrected my flaws, I have lost 2 perfectly good girls to my insensitivity and anger.
8:05 PM
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Wednesday, December 31, 2008
10:05 AM
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Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
As a reminder to myself, to be a better person.
11:41 PM
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Monday, December 29, 2008
I have broken up with sh. Thank you all for consoling me all this while.
3:14 PM
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YAT tHe BeGinNing.
TIMMY NG
BREAKING THE CHAINS OF SELF IMPOSED MORTALITY
NEVERTHELESS STILL DEFINED BY THE LAWS OF PHYSICS.
YLoRenTz InvAriaNce
YGuAge InVarIanCe
STILL CONTEMPLATING
YMI CONCIENCIA
IN THE DARK, IT IS EASY TO PRETEND THAT THE TRUTH IS WHAT IT OUGHT TO BE.
